On The Outside Looking In

Accomodation for uni doesn't open until June....yeaaa i am not late
and for the IELTS results, there is no need to rush coz they accept my 1119 results ...pheeww

Had a buffet lunch with parents at Istana Hotel. It will be even more fun if my sister were here. I can take food of her plate coz she always chooses the nicest food. I hate hate hate KL. The traffic congestion and the over-crowding of tall tall buildings is just unbearable.

The buffet was actually quite nice. They had the sushis, soups, italian food, chinese food, local dishes and desserts!!I made a dash to the chocolate fountain once we got there. You should actually eat your dessert last but I can't help it, they had marshmallows and fruits on sticks. I took a few marshmallows and just twirled it round and round at the falling chocolate. I ended up eating only 1 and a 1/2 sticks coz cepat muak. Then i started eating all the proper food at the buffet.

Something embarrassing happenned at the buffet. I was taking some fish and then my elbow brushed against a plate on the table.The plate had soup spoons on it( the white porcelain ones) and it twirled and the spoons just went out of the plate and one dropped on the floor. BANG.........and it shatterred into pieces! omg sooo embarrassing...thank god I was at the back part of the buffet and no one was there excpt for this one waiter who was standing there. He immediately scooped up the broken pieces. I was saying 'sorry...sorry' and he said 'its ok, not a problem'. haha. First time that ever happenned.

Awhile after that I took some mee and one of the waiters offerred to carry it for me and I said 'takyah, dekat je' and this other waiter asked where i was from...maybe coz they knew I broke the spoon. Maybe they were keeping an eye on 'the girl who broke the spoon' ........haih.. Nadia, such a klutz.

At the lobby, waiting for the elevator, I played punching with my dad. It was so fun. We air-punched each other, we moved our heads whenever a punch is heading our way. We stopped when mum gave me the look. Haha. She wasn't mad though, maybe because its in public. At home she never bothers, sometimes she laughs aswell.

woooaaaa exam starts on Tues. Going to drop by at facebook and friendster for a short while, then I am off.


Don't carry the world upon your shoulders,

For well you know that It's a fool,

Who plays it cool,

By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude - The Beatles

Strange Times

...........................................its already June

and I haven't submitted my application for accomodation at Uni. Crap... People have already submitted during April!!! Omg....where am I going to sleep?? just roll around on the grass? Dahlah its near to winter when I go to UK later.........Need to go to Lancaster Uni website.. Pls pls pls ada accomodation....


...................haven't sent my IELTS results to Uni..........seriously, Nadia, where is your brain!!! hopefully it is alright....i have already been offerred a place in uni.... and my 1119 english results are there, isn't that enough? Must send email to uni.

there's acne all over my face and i have become so cranky and silent....only with my friends i will laugh and make stupid jokes....

most definitely won't go online tonight unless I finish 1 econs data, 2 econs essay, 1 p3 maths, and 1 p7 stats.
Its going to be one hectic exam week for next week. Will be starting off the exam with Econs 4 in MPH....its like a freezer there even with my jacket on. Why can't they start with math. Waking inside the hall for the first paper always makes me stressful and fearful, then usually it will only be fine after I start writing. Trust me, I will look soo pale, and I won't communicate with anyone. Even my eyes will only zoom to one direction. Thats how nervous I get.....Ya Allah.....

Great........i am blogging during Maghrib prayers. How respectful, nadia

Running Out Of Time

I am going to prom.....Yang Sik showed the prom tickets to me today. Its black in colour and there are bits of gold on it. I am suppossed to get mine from Jia-Xin later I think.


Somehow I am just not exited to go for prom. Everything will be too rushed. My paper ends on Friday itself and then I will have to go back home and start preparing. Besides, I don't know what I'm wearing. I need to find a dress which covers my arms and my back and its length must be until my knees. If i don't find one within an hour of walking in Pyramid on Saturday, I will just wear this black dress that I have at home.


Some people are planning to hire make-up artist and will go to salons to get their hair done for prom! Wow. I will just be wearing lipgloss and some eyeshadow/eyeliner/mascara...i dont know which one..its the black thing you put at your lower eyelid.lol. I know that I have tonssss of pimples on my face but i cannot stand the powdery substance on my face sebab tak comfortable.

Just want to meet up with my friends and have some fun to mark the end of A-levels. Not going to college anymore...

I remember watching this movie a few years back on Astro. Its quite an old movie, it was filmed in the 80's. They had it on youtube a while ago but it was removed!Alaaa.. how to watch now. Its about this girl who befriends an autistic boy. (this boy doesn't talk throughout the whole movie except during the time in the girl's dreams) The story is really really nice. It seems like the girl is helping the boy because the boy has some disorder but actually its the other way around.

Something funny happened on Monday.

Me : Pui Jing, what magazine are you reading?

PJ : What magazine..Nadia, this is my Sociology book. *haha*


Omg........I gained 1kg.....and I know where it all went..

I am, I said

To no one there

And no one heard at all

Not even the chair

I Am....I Said - Neil Diamond

Hold On To Your Dreams

I dunno....I just feel disconnected. Been a total mute and not responsive to my surroundings.


Maybe I should just relocate to some deserted island to get away from all this. Things that I wanna to if I were on a deserted island:-

1) build a house made out of bamboo sticks and daun kelapa and daun pisang...actually I am not sure what to use...

2) swim in the ocean and learn how to catch fish with my hands ( i have seen it on tv) and befriend dolphins, they are very friendly creatures and won't eat you.

3) make music by blowing in those big seashells

4) explore the forest and eat all the fruits and berries that I can find. I can cook roast fish with cranberry sauce.

5) build sandcastles throughout the day and if i am bored,i can build a raft and sail across the ocean and use a spear to stab the fish or prawns.

6) best part about this is that i can act impulsively,and make all mistakes and do stupid and crazy things and still be happy because my witnesses will only be the birds, the trees, and the fish that i am cooking.

seems like soo relaxing to just get away from civilization...but it will be boring after 3 days because I don't have any friends. Besides, I will get sunburn and my clothes will be ripped and dirty and my hair extremely messy. No one will recognise me anymore.

Actually, a little bit of stress is good because it drives you to do something. It makes life more fun living because an obstacle is placed in your way and you try all sort of things to pull that barrier down. You will do anything to get to the other side even when it means that you have to suffer emotional and physical pain which messes up your system. When you have broken down the barrier, what awaits infront of you is pure joy, happiness and laughter. This is soooo lame....


Had a scary dream a few days back. I don't wanna write it down now because its already late. I can't go to bed thinking about it.


Saw library boy yesterday.......he looks really good....i hope that he didnt see me. i looked like i haven't slept/eaten in 3 days, i just look soo dull. David Archuleta said in an interview, 'I am not worthy of standing next to David Cook.' I am David Archuleta but in this case it seems very true.

Anyway, i sleep and eat everyday. lol

All I need,

Is the air I breathe,

And a place to rest my head,



Say (All I Need) - OneRepublic

Watching The Ground Beneath You Drop

Was unable to sit properly and focus today. I keep on putting my legs up and down, then shifting it right and left. Couldn't make up my mind to either use pen or pencil. I used pencil at first because I might write mistakes and I don't want to strike it off, then I switched back to pen because it just does not look nice. Actually it doesn't bother because its not like I'm handing in my work to teacher or something.

Taught a few of my friends AS maths today. 2 people asked a question about tangent and 2 others asked a question about functions. I hope these questions were tested today. Hopefully the paper was easier then last year so that everyone can enjoy better grades than before. After that, I went on doing my A2 Stats. Stopped doing after failing to attempt 2 questions. Just got so angry and stopped doing Stats altogether. Tomorrow must see Mr. Kumar!!

I just played for the remaining two hours in the library. Went online at one of the comps and just walked around the library and walked through the shelves for no reason. Today the library was soooo cold!! Was it just me or was the library really cold? I had to step outside a couple of times because I was practically freezing and I didn't bring my jacket....

Went to the cafeteria to buy some food before heading back home. I was about to leave the cafeteria went this girl stood at the entrance blocking the way. Ya....very smart.. I said 'excuse me' and apparently she did not hear so that led me to say 'excuse me' again in a way louder tone. That shocked her abit and she gave me 'that' look and moved out of the way. Ok..I was quite rude and I did feel bad about it. There was no reason for me to act that way...Its just that...i dunno.....i have been receiving negative vibes today. Its ok....tommorrow's a new day.

David Cook won American Idol and the other David, the one that I was rooting for lost....

Sara is now obssessed with the song Love Song by Sara Bareilles. Notice the similarities in their names. Ehem...narcissistic..hehe just kidding Sara

I have been listening to Dream On - Michael Johns (Studio Version) for a few times already. The lyrics itself are meaningful and I like the falsetto parts..

Flying In Perfect Circles

Yay. I studied quite a lot today in the library. I just realised that long concentrations make you feel exhausted. Closed my eyes for awhile after finishing the 3rd Accounts question, felt slightly dizzy and I actually timed myself this time, as advised by Arthur.

I went down to the cafeteria and saw this guy wearing a shirt which says 'Playstation' and it had an arrow pointing down. I was laughing all the way because I find it so ridiculous. Tak malu ke pakai baju camtu? Some other interesting phrases I see on guys shirts are 'Less Is More' and ' I Am Damn Good In Bed' I can't help but laugh abit when I see those shirts.Uhm...I find it stupid.Its like they are attempting to promote themselves. Maybe they like attention. Guys look so much better in normal shirt and jeans.

I went downstairs at 12.00pm to go online at one of the computers. I wish they did not make the stairs so steep, I have to hold the railing really tight and make careful steps when going down. Talked to Arthur for awhile. We talked about studies and facebook and university entry requirements. He is actually a scholar under MISC or MICS or was it MCIS, i forgot how the alphabets are arranged..lol..its quite popular. All I know that its a shipping company.....i think.

Then I went to talk to Lilin and Desmond. They were both at the computer. Lililn was preparing for Business Studies while Desmond went online. Desmond was being his normal naughty perv self and Lilin kept on saying that she is scared. Desmond purposely stared at the person opposite his computer until the poor dude lifted up his monitor screen. He likes to kacau people for no reason. Wished good luck to Lilin then when upstairs to continue studying. I just realised Lilin is candle in bahasa melayu.

Around 3.00pm, I went back home. Me and Pui Jing walked past the Web, since its on the way. Took a peek inside....OK...Suddenly my head doesn't hurt anymore. Haha. Just kidding. I did feel a bit happy, cant deny that.

Omg American Idol finals are today. It will be a competition between David Archuleta and David Cook. The two David's are going head to head. I want the one in red to win.

May Angels Lead You In

Last Saturday I had lunch at Secret Recipe and ordered Spagetthi Bolognaise, my fav dish. As usual, the spagetthi came with either chicken or beef meatballs. I chose beaf meatballs because I always eat my spagetthi with beef. Went the food came, I started eating like normal until I cut open the meatballs and started feeling a bit nauseous. I wanted to throw all the meatballs away but my parents were there. So I oferred them some and just swallowed down the rest. There was nothing wrong with the meatballs but I just cannot take the smell and the taste.


First its chicken, now its beef. Last month when I went to KFC with Pui Jing, Sara, and Pam, I ordered the Zinger burger. I had few bites of the burger than ended up peeling the cheese of the burger and eating it with chilli sauce and the bun. Pam keep on asking me to finish the chicken countless times so, I just covered the chicken with tissue paper to hide it. That was the last time I had chicken.


But I guess it should be alright. I am still eating fish, seafood and tofu. Actually tofu is really nice if you eat it with soy sauce. Anyways, I can get my food daily intake of protein from there. I hope I dont turn into a vegetarian because there is only limited variety of food that I can take and it will be so boring.


Maybe this lack of interest in beef and chicken is just due to exam stress! Haha ( *denial*)
After exam I will find ways to recover my interest in these food.

What Happenned Today

Went to college in the morning. Started by doing Econs data and managed to do half of the data because I just could not think. I rested my head on the table for awhile. Then I moved on to doing Accounts. Miscalculated the figures half of the time. My head started to throb really hard and I can barely keep my eyes open. Went back home and slept unintentionally and thank god I woke up just in time to perform prayers!

Quickly went downtairs to get a glass of water to swallow down panadol then went back to sleep.
.....Dozed of for god knows how long(I was dumb enough not to set up the alarm clock). Then I woke up to the sound of my handphone ringing. Sara called me to help her renew her library books. Whoaaa...just in time for prayers again! Thats sooo cool.


Now I feel fine....need to hit the books now before I get hit by exams.

Everything Is Thrown Into The Sea

Today is Wesak Day which means that its a public holiday. Some of my friends are having exams though. It is the start of A2 exams I think. Scarynyee. My exam starts in around 2 weeks. Double scaryyy.



Just checked the timetable. Its Physics today, the subject which I don't really miss, but I did better in it then Chem ( my fav). I can only remember just small bits and pieces of what I studied in Physics in high school. There is inersia, ladung - tenaga keupayaan and kinetik ,gelombang ( most interesting.. i was obssessed with dipping both my fingers in water dalam baldi kat rumah at different times to see the intersection of the water waves and i put diff sized objects in the middle of the baldi and i tapped the water to make it move forwards to see the pembelauan effect. - how retarded ), elektrik dan elektronik, radioactive, haba , tekanan -all the prinsip archimedes bernoulli, keseimbangan daya (the worst ever). I lovin get logik - unfortunately cant remember anythin bout get logik except the names DAN, ATAU. I love repairing the litar part! ok.....i should stop now. i sound like a geek.


i miss chem....i say this everytime i see a chem book in the library.

when i first started a-levels i was so happy to not have to study chem, physics anymore. Because those subjects are time-consuming but come to think of it it was soo fun... omg i shouldn't have checked the timetable just now, makes me reminincse. maybe i should have gone to PE class and only do Accounting & Finance masa degree. PE7 class does provide Accounts as a subject. I didnt know that.


I Must Stop Disturbing People.....

I sometimes disturb Pui Jing in the library by nudging her to show her songs on my ipod. Lets say if im listening to a nice song i would just poke her arm and show her what im listening to while waving the ipod in her face. Everytime Pui Jing just turns at me and smile. I just realised that what i do doesnt serve any purpose. Come to think of it, it is quite annoying. Must stop doing that!


I disturb Sara worse than Pui Jing. This time Pui Jing joins in aswell. Hehe.I like to show Sara the alternative rock bands that i have on my ipod and last Thursday, I asked her to listen to some Malay/Indo songs and ask if they are nice and ask her if she understands the lyrics and she says no. Its ok coz i dont understand either. She prefers Sheila On 7 than Anuar Zain. I like Anuar Zain better!

i ask if im bothering them but they always say NO! but i am not taking any chances.


Bottom line is Don't Bring Ipod To Library

Haha...Just remembered something funny. I asked Sara to listen to a Mariah Carey song and she was listening for 15 seconds and asked what language is this? Huh...Its English, my dear.
Its funny for someone who profess superb english to say that.But yeah, Mariah tends to whisper when she sings sometimes even I don't know what she is saying.

The World Will Follow After

I am starting to get headache and I feel really really exhausted throughout the day. I think its due to sleep deprivation. Its not like i'm doing it on purpose, oh well.

Did accounts questions today. Skipped the theory parts though, i will save all the memerising parts a few days before. This is why like maths...

I am suppossed to write something here but I forgot. Just cant think properly right know.

I have been listening to Here Comes The Sun - The Beatles over and over again on youtube.

Its a really nice song and it just lights up my day. It makes me really happy and cheerful.

I like music in those days when its clean and fun, where singers like Flo-Rida, Ludacris, or any rap artist whose songs focuses only on women's asses are non existent.

I want to watch this movie because it has Emma Watson (the girl from Harry Potter) in it. She is so lawa and I like her character in Harry Potter. The plot sounds just so-so though. I wanna see her dance in the movie. Anyway,I'll watch it after A2 exams.

Here comes the sun, do do do do

Here comes the sun,

and I say It's all right

Little darling

The smiles returning to the faces

Little darling

It seems like years since it's been here

- The Beatles-

It's A Different Situation

Yayyyy. I have managed to not drink Pepsi this whole week *claps*. I normally drink these kind of drinks once in 3-4 months but lately I have been gulping down Pepsi like its no one's business. Previously, the only canned drinks that I take is only Nestea but now I have this addiction to Pepsi. Sad, I know but I am gaining-control. Should be fine.


Mum and dad asked to follow them exercise tomorrow morning. *sigh* malasnyerr..i agreed though.. the only reason i wake up so early on weekends is to perform religion obligations then I will read the morning newspaper if its delivered on time. My mum asked me one day if I am starving myself. Hahaha. So not true. I just look sick but I am perfectly healthy. I think its because of the dark circles under my eyes. Lately, I have been sleeping only 4 hours a day but strangely I dont feel tired.


Yesterday I slept at 2.am. After doing Stats i caught this documentary on the History channel. I watched it with my dad. He was watching CNN, then I flipped the channels during commercials and I stopped at the History channel. Its about an aeroplane (KAL 007) that has been shot down by the Soviet interceptors in 1983. Kesian...everyone in the plane died. The aeroplane's rear was shot and the plane tumbled down into the sea and all evidence was destroyed. The falling time was 9 minutes!! lama gila! Not a speck of bodyparts were recovered. The Russians actually managed to find the aeroplanes black box the day after but diorang tak declare pun. Apsal nak hide the evidence?Anyways, I dont blame the soviets for shooting down the aeroplane because the aeroplane violated Soviet's airspace. Soviet's jet could not see the aeroplane coz it was at night, they thought it was an american spy-plane, so they shot missiles at it. Tapi kesian coz everyone perished. Interesting stuff though.


....I must buy donuts at Pyramid tomorrow, if I go Pyramid. Its so weird I can eat all this junk without force. Tomorrow is the last....Promise


Went to college to study for the past week. I actually studied a lot for the first 3 days, Shocked! then, uhm i went back to disturbing everyone for the following 2 days. Paused every 2 questions of maths to kacau people for 20 mins. then, followed sara and pj to see mr kumar to ask questions and disturb sara while mr kumar thinked of solutions to the questions. I realise that I study more when I am not happy. So, I should make myself unhappy!!



I want this cat. Cutenyeeee. Where are her ears? She is an earless cute/adorable kitten. She looks hungry....

Move Your Hands In Circles

Had my birthday 2 days ago. Went to eat with my parents and bought a few stuff. I wanted donuts but I was too full when we were about to get them. Now I feel like eating donuts!! I like all the ring ones. You can wear one on every finger but it would be hard to do so since the radius of two donuts are wider than the length between the fingers. Mummy wouldn't like that anyway 'Nadia, don't play with your fooooood!"

I don't like studying at night, sometimes during the day aswell. hehe
Just watched one episode of Desperate Housewives and one episode of The Office.

Steve Carell is hot but he is such an idiot on the show which draws my attention away from him and to John Krasinski which is such an adorable office mate. Having said that, I The Office will be nothing without Steve Carell!! I want the atmosphere at my future work place to be the same as The Office tv show. They appear to be playing around most of the time and they hardly get any work done. Its all play and no work. No work!!!

Just like how I loathe exams so much now. It is always at the back of your mind and never goes away. Guilt comes all the time when I go online, listen to music, watch tv, but I still continue to do so. It makes you want to drill your skull take that piece of thought and hammer it into mush and discard the waste far far away in the middle of the sea.

John Krasinski aka Jim Halpert (the cute one)Steve Carell aka Michael Scott ( my fav character)

I wanna go ice-skating at Sunway Pyramid with the pals. I have to wait until after a month to do that (after exams...yawn). Unless we go to college one of these days and take a cab to Sunway sometime in the morning since there is hardly anyone at Sunway at that time on a weekday. Someone can take a shot of me attempting to spin around and falling flat on my arse. I bet all of us will fall on our arses.

Ooooo I just realised, I had two donuts during Teacher's Day last friday. I should have taken more....Nadz...don't be greedy

End Of Chapter (Epilogue)

Last day of college was today. We had a blast during Maths class. All of a sudden, everyone became whores, whoops, i mean camwhores. People were obssesively snaping pictures here and there making all sorts or poses, decent ones and not-so-decent ones. These pictures can help serve as a memory of PB1 to all of us.

An overview of my family in college (PB1 Class)

Pui Jing : PJ is a kind-hearted girl with a big sense of humour. Her fave pick up line is ' anything u want, u just tell me'. I will miss the crazy and ridiculous ideas that we always come up with. I will also miss the times in the library, especially every friday when we hang out until 6pm. Her butt is hot.

Yoke Ling : I realise that Yoke likes to make sound effects like 'rawrr'. Yoke seldoms gets mad and she always have that smiling look on her face which makes me happy. Sometimes Yoke smiles and laughs in a cutesy (manja) way which makes guys think that she is flirting. I am going to miss your laugh.

Sara : Just the sight of you makes me want to 'kacau' you. Sara, sorry I always bother you all this while but I don't normally mean it, so don't get mad ok! You always say the funniest and weirdest things (horny stuff) but you can get serious aswell. I won't have anyone to bully anymore after A2.

See Sheen : The person whom I always sit with in Accounts class. Eventhough we don't talk so much, but when she talks it is always funny. In the morning, I always ask her what is in Nanyang Siang Pau newspaper because I can't understand chinese.

Hui Wen : She is so sweet just like a lollipop. She reminds me of some anime character when she smiles. Hui Wen is very helpful and she will definitely help you in your studies. She is soft-spoken and polite all the time. Good choice for a wife. Hehe

Pamela : The mother of the class. She is always concerned about everyone. She has Rapunzel hair and is 100% loyal to Daniel Radcliffe. Pam also has a mini first aid kit in her bag in case someone gets sick. You can count on her if you plan to seek revenge on the opposite sex.

Lauren : LeggyLauren, her legs go on forever. Sexy, sleek, tall, fit to be a model! Lauren is kind and nice and sometimes naughty (isn't she alwayz). I tak sanggup call Lauren bitchy coz she is nice to me. I always have to look up to her when we talk(neck pain...no lah just jk). She is an oreo-freak

Xin Ee : I always pronounce her name Zin E instead of Sin E. Sorry my dear, it has already become a habit. The petite sexy-ass girl with the loud voice ( doesnt go unnoticed) She does gymnastics so just imagine how flexible her body is!! She likes to camwhore same like Lauren up there.

Queenie : Girl with the sexy smile. We love to gossip about Gossip Girl. She reminds me of Blair Waldorf. The way they talk and the way they mimick their faces are the same. A bit bitchy laa but in a likable way. She also likes to camwhore like those two up there. Maybe you three should provide posing-for-cams lessons for those who rarely camwhore! lol

Hui Yii : Cheese tart gal. She is very friendly and has loads of stories to tell. I never get bored of Hui Yii. Pre-Tee Huii-Yii....It is so so easy to make her laugh which makes me happy at the same time. She is so cool and slumber man! and her hair is to die for

Anis : Beautiful, intelligent, and very funny. She can be the valedictorian of PB1. Anis also reads The Sun everyday because she looks for that newspaper every morning. Starbucks is practically her other home cause she loves coffee and I've also heard about a boy who works there. lol

Li Ling : I love talking crap with her. She is looks so serious but she is actually damn funny! She is so skinny, I am jealousss. We also took our IELTS course and test together. Those classes on Saturdays were quite fun. Don't forget Nobita, but more importantly don't forget me.

Swee Ying : The pretty girl in PBI. Not only that she is pretty, she is also funny! Swee Ying also has a lot of clothes all which are very nice. I think that Swee Ying takes good care of her image. She also like to 'kacau' Mr. Kumar in class. Now she is letting her hair grow longer.

Sue Ann : Very playful girl. I love your hair man! From straight to curly then back to straight. Sue Ann also loves to wear clothes from Topshop. Her face is always smiling and sometimes she talks and laughs damn loud in class. She also like to look at Nobita's friend.

Jia-Xin : The sexiest girl in PB1. She looks so fierce at first but actually you can talk to her alot. She also loves to eat sweets especially mentos. Last time she had long hair but she cut it short. She looks hotter now.

Jade : She looks like a porcelain china doll, especially after she did rebonding and cut her fringe. Jade is so cute when she laughs and her taste in shoes are da bomb.

Adeline : At first when I saw her I tought that she was from Sarawak because of her sir name 'Bok' and because she looks a bit mix. She is a nice person and she likes to wear skirts. And we took the IELTS course together.

Eugene : Adeline's man. Eugene is so straightforward when he says something. Sometimes It is quite funny. He is good at doing class presntations. Yo, brush up on your rempit communicating skills.lol

Jo : He is quite quiet in class and quite smart I think. Long time never see him in class.

Ashvinder : New classmate. Very hardworking. She has gorgeous eyes and when she laughs she looks so pretty. I realise that Ashvin likes to wear black more than other colors.

Stephanie : New classmate too. She is pretty and slim. She watches a lot of tv shows I think. I like the dark blue shiny top that she wears.

Arthur : New classmate. He speaks with a so-called American accent. His hobby is bullying people like me. I have to admit, he is one of the brightest students in PB1 eventhough he wears skinny jeans. My dollar signs don't look like worms!!

Damia : New classmate. She is so sweet and her handwriting looks similar to mine. She likes to wear 3/4 pants to class. It was fun talking to her.

Kuan Lee : My ex-classmate who transferred to ICPU. Everything that he says is damn funny eventhough he is quite naughty sometimes. I still hang out with him in the library.

That is all I have to say. I love most of you and I won't ever forget any of you. I am humbled to know each and everyone of you. *Nadz bows to all of the fantastic people mentioned in this post*

In My Life

Nadz is extremely happy and relieved now
I am glad to go back to those times when a laugh will definitely occur every 10 seconds
All I have in my memory is just the fun times

Hope You Have The Time

Should I go to prom or not? I am still in the process of deciding. One of the reasons not to go is because it is on the 13th of June which is the last day of exam. My paper ends in the afternoon so its only around 4 hours before prom starts which is at 7.00pm. Other factors include :-

a) hunting for a dress which fits my awful body shape and which covers my arms and most of my legs but still looks flattering. Besides, I cant work with bright colours..

b) looking for stilletoes which are high and comfy.

c) my inability to function well in big crowds.

d) i might have to enter late because i have to perform my prayers first. what if they close the doors for late entrants?

e) transportation to the hotel. (actually this is not an issue. i just wanna add to more reasons not to go...hehe)

f) my buddies are not going ( pj, sara ho, yoke ling)

g) buddies who might be going will be all over the dance floor ( lauren, xin ee, queen, pam, anis, hui yii......etc)

h) i can picture myself sitting alone at the table sipping orange juice and making countless trips to the buffet area ( hey this isn't so bad actually!)

i) i might not win the lucky draw. i NEVER win luck draws...grrr

j) the prom ticket is RM130....actually, this isnt really a prob for me.

h) shelf boy aka library boy aka deer might not go. it would be a dissapointment coz you will be longing to see someone just to find out that he won't be there. all your effort to dress up and look pretty will be wasted.

This outfit looks gorgeous. It is simple and flirty. I would wear it with a shawl/ short jacket but in a darker colour.

Little Voice

Nadz (LV): Why aren't u hitting the books?
Nadz : Because I just feel lazy
Nadz (LV): Your performance has shown a decline
Nadz : Yup, so did some other people
Nadz (LV) : You must buck up or you will be denied entry into Uni! Would you want that?
Nadz : Hell no! but I can't focus for more than 30 mins
Nadz (LV) : Don't give that bullsh*t excuse and start moving!! Exam is in one month
Nadz : One month? As in four weeks only? Crap. I can't study at home or in the library. Everywhere is a distraction
Nadz (LV) : You must remain focused. Please I beg of you, for only one month, devote yourself to your study books then you are free to indulge in other activities. Trap yourself in a cage for one month and you must only allow limited time for leisure activities. Onlining and tv is sinful and it has destructive consequences
Nadz : You made your point clear this time. I will be a sefless robot. Must study..........must study.........OMG gossip girl episode 15 is on youtube!!! Georgina Sparks is a classy villain.

The dialog above tends to take place on a daily basis. My conscience loses out all the time. Tsk tsk
* Nadz = me
* Nadz (LV) = little voice in me