Exams have been shit lately. I am expecting nothing for my Accounts ( i know, i still have paper 3 but paper 4 was absolute crap) and I did a stupid mistake in question 2 for stats paper, which i could've gotten right for.
I have been quite obssesive with Radiohead. Famous for the song Creep but this song - No Surprises is hawt aswell. I love their songs, they can just make you drift away. Lead singer of the band looks skeletal and stoned, i wonder if he is on drugs.
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
When Shadows Fill My Day
This week has been quite a bad week for me. I have never been covered with so many grey rain-filled clouds in 5 consecutive days. To start off, I cried twice this week, which is bad enough. To make matters worse, 2 people around me cried the very same week. I hardly ever feel sad, let alone cry. I myself am very shocked and embarrassed at my own emo behaviour. Tears are a sign of weakness and I do not want people seeing me as somone who is vulnerable or fragile.
The first tears to roll down my face was due to something totally absurd. I wrote it all down in my previous entry. I was most definitely PMSing and nothing else. Sometimes the cramps in your stomach might lead you to pessimistic thoughts or overthinking small meaningless gestures. I am totally fine now and I dont hold a grudge or hatred towards anyone anymore. I apologise for acting so stupid.
The tears that rolled down my face today was a SIGNIFICANT one. I am extremely worried for A2 TRIALS which is in TWO weeks. It would be very hard for me to even just get one A out of the three subjects that I am taking.
MATHS - I havent started studying statistics for maths. I am absorbing 0% of what is thought in math class becausse mr kumar is now teaching from the book and he rarely writes notes on the board. As for me, I most definitely need the teacher to write down notes on the board so that I can copy the notes so that i can refer to it later on. today i listened to 'see you again' by miley cyrus on Sara's Ipod while mr kumar asks us to do some hypothesis question in the stats book. i didnt do it, of course.
ACCOUNTS - I havent done any MCQ questions yeat. I just gave a look at it today. OMG. Everything is soo factual and technical with not much calculation required questions. What?? Why??The paper 4 is alrite but i am taking a much much longer time to answer the questions than the short two hours allocated for the paper.
ECONS - economics = japanese. can i speak japanese? not a single word. need i say more? this basically applies to the topic of money, unemployment, all the fiscal and monetary policies. PHILIPS CURVE!! and data.....forgot about data....haha haha macro economy is making my life complicated. essays in the redspot book is not accurate enough. where else can i refer to? who am i suppose to turn to?
and......i did not study much during this whole week due to unexpected headaches throughout the week.
Cute boy in the library made me slightly happy though. *yay* Now i see him at my block as well. i just found out that he also has classes there *double yay*. He looks quite pissed off lately, maybe due to exam stress aswell or he realised that i always check him out and he is fed-up about it.. maybe the latter. *frowns*
I have IELTS exam romorrow at TBS. I hope my brain can think straight tomorrow and this lethargicness to go away. Insyaallah, i will do well.
The first tears to roll down my face was due to something totally absurd. I wrote it all down in my previous entry. I was most definitely PMSing and nothing else. Sometimes the cramps in your stomach might lead you to pessimistic thoughts or overthinking small meaningless gestures. I am totally fine now and I dont hold a grudge or hatred towards anyone anymore. I apologise for acting so stupid.
The tears that rolled down my face today was a SIGNIFICANT one. I am extremely worried for A2 TRIALS which is in TWO weeks. It would be very hard for me to even just get one A out of the three subjects that I am taking.
MATHS - I havent started studying statistics for maths. I am absorbing 0% of what is thought in math class becausse mr kumar is now teaching from the book and he rarely writes notes on the board. As for me, I most definitely need the teacher to write down notes on the board so that I can copy the notes so that i can refer to it later on. today i listened to 'see you again' by miley cyrus on Sara's Ipod while mr kumar asks us to do some hypothesis question in the stats book. i didnt do it, of course.
ACCOUNTS - I havent done any MCQ questions yeat. I just gave a look at it today. OMG. Everything is soo factual and technical with not much calculation required questions. What?? Why??The paper 4 is alrite but i am taking a much much longer time to answer the questions than the short two hours allocated for the paper.
ECONS - economics = japanese. can i speak japanese? not a single word. need i say more? this basically applies to the topic of money, unemployment, all the fiscal and monetary policies. PHILIPS CURVE!! and data.....forgot about data....haha haha macro economy is making my life complicated. essays in the redspot book is not accurate enough. where else can i refer to? who am i suppose to turn to?
and......i did not study much during this whole week due to unexpected headaches throughout the week.
Cute boy in the library made me slightly happy though. *yay* Now i see him at my block as well. i just found out that he also has classes there *double yay*. He looks quite pissed off lately, maybe due to exam stress aswell or he realised that i always check him out and he is fed-up about it.. maybe the latter. *frowns*
I have IELTS exam romorrow at TBS. I hope my brain can think straight tomorrow and this lethargicness to go away. Insyaallah, i will do well.
What A Feeling
Today was american idol elimination day. I wholeheartedly disagree with the results. Danny Noriega and Asia'h Eppherson should have made it in the top 12. American idol will be so not worth watching without danny noriega in it! He is annoyingly cute and absolutely silly. Half of the fun of american idol is permanently sucked out of me. The next time I watch american idol, I will only put on half a smile, just give half of my attention, and I bet I will only be half ecstatic when watching this much loved programme in the following weeks.
Kristy Leigh Cook and Chekezie should have been eliminated. Those two do not deserve to be in the top 12. Hate both of them. I want Danny to be in!!
Monday, March 3, 2008
ishhhh
i took a nap or must i say an extremely long nap from 5.00pm untill 7.30pm. I missed my Asar prayers. Very very unhappy bout that. Actually i did wake up at 6.00pm but my head felt so heavy, it plopped back on the pillow. Stupid stupid headache. Shud have just woken up and performed my prayers. As i am typing this, the headache is still here, the sleep was so not worth it.
I should have set my alarm clock before napping. I mean, who sleeps without setting the alarm clock?
Alaaa................geram seih. Tak suker lah camni.
I should have set my alarm clock before napping. I mean, who sleeps without setting the alarm clock?
Alaaa................geram seih. Tak suker lah camni.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Say What You Need To Say
I have been online for 3 hours straight. Just looking at absolute nonsense on the net. I wonder why the majority of people have so many emotions in themselves while i on the other hand dont really have much. Some people can just go on and on ranting about their feelings how they are pissed and depressed, and hating the world so much. A little bit of anger and frustration in life is good, i suppose because you get to feel different varietes of emotions in life but not to the extent of self-cutting, overconsumption of depression pills, or mass killing aka Victoria Tech. A diversity of emotions that a person feels can shape a persons personality as they grow....hmmm no wonder why i am not growing up. *laughs*
I dont think that i am growing up, emotionally that is. Guessing i stopped growing at the age of 15. Still childish. Still dependant. Still retarded. Still taking everything in this life as a joke. Still not ready for future responsibilities. Slightly worried. But to be honest, i am not.
Last Friday was such a bore. Got to see Deer only in hallways, gosh he is super cute. the dude did not show up in the library. So, all i did in the library was study econs essay and did some lirting(lonely flirting) who do u expect me to flirt with? the shabby econs essay book i was reading?Deer was not there! I guess he attended extra classes or he went home and sleep.
Pui Jing and Yoke Ling both have a new love interest. They cant stop thinking and discussing how hot the guy in the cafeteria is. The guy is too skinny for my liking though. We all told Horny Sara all about him and as usual horny sara become so excited (thats why she got that nickname. sara are u mad?) she actually contemplated to go down to check up on him during our maths class .We managed to convince her not to do so. Pheww.
Pui Jing hates horse and likes new dude.
Yoke Ling likes new dude.
If a fight goes on, my money is on pui jing, tht girl is tough!
Sara likes milk, mop, david, kiran, guy with gothic eyes, clinton, zen chien, the dude who sends her home, and the list goes on......but i bet her fave is Mop and Milk.
Do not read the following if you arent sara or puijing. It may cause confusion.
Sara's fantasy : A glass of milk spills on the floor. mr maths teacher takes a mop and dips it in the bucket filled with soap and water. The volume of the water decreases as it is mostly absorbed by the thick smelly fibres of the mop. The excess water is squeezed back into the bucket making the water turn slightly shit-like due to all the dirt sticking on the mop. Then, the mop cleans up the pot-belly-cow-smelling milk on the floor. Swirls and circles created by the mop over a long period of time creates a heavenly fusion consisting of bucket water, milk and soap. The end. Sara is going to kill me. Please dont pull the trigger.
i have no offense against bucket or mop but milk looks gangsta-like.
Note : i wasnt high when this post is written. i can assure you that i am fully conscious and crack-free throughout typing every single word in this post.
Deer looks a bit like jonathan rhys meyers. Just watched Match Point and jonathan is as hot as hell and he reminds me of dear,whoops, i mean deer. This is only an infatuation. it will be over soon, trust me. i dont like this dude. i mean come on i dont even know his name, but he sure looks like a jar of sugar. *sweetness* i should also stop checking him out every 10 mins. im scared that he might realise and think that i am a stalker. Thanks to Sara, she convinced me that deer thinks i AM a crazy stalker. Too bad, she doesnt know who deer is, puijing is the only one who knows this. I shud leave him in peace. All i know is that the flirting stops now....hmm..maybe next week. Ta
I dont think that i am growing up, emotionally that is. Guessing i stopped growing at the age of 15. Still childish. Still dependant. Still retarded. Still taking everything in this life as a joke. Still not ready for future responsibilities. Slightly worried. But to be honest, i am not.
Last Friday was such a bore. Got to see Deer only in hallways, gosh he is super cute. the dude did not show up in the library. So, all i did in the library was study econs essay and did some lirting(lonely flirting) who do u expect me to flirt with? the shabby econs essay book i was reading?Deer was not there! I guess he attended extra classes or he went home and sleep.
Pui Jing and Yoke Ling both have a new love interest. They cant stop thinking and discussing how hot the guy in the cafeteria is. The guy is too skinny for my liking though. We all told Horny Sara all about him and as usual horny sara become so excited (thats why she got that nickname. sara are u mad?) she actually contemplated to go down to check up on him during our maths class .We managed to convince her not to do so. Pheww.
Pui Jing hates horse and likes new dude.
Yoke Ling likes new dude.
If a fight goes on, my money is on pui jing, tht girl is tough!
Sara likes milk, mop, david, kiran, guy with gothic eyes, clinton, zen chien, the dude who sends her home, and the list goes on......but i bet her fave is Mop and Milk.
Do not read the following if you arent sara or puijing. It may cause confusion.
Sara's fantasy : A glass of milk spills on the floor. mr maths teacher takes a mop and dips it in the bucket filled with soap and water. The volume of the water decreases as it is mostly absorbed by the thick smelly fibres of the mop. The excess water is squeezed back into the bucket making the water turn slightly shit-like due to all the dirt sticking on the mop. Then, the mop cleans up the pot-belly-cow-smelling milk on the floor. Swirls and circles created by the mop over a long period of time creates a heavenly fusion consisting of bucket water, milk and soap. The end. Sara is going to kill me. Please dont pull the trigger.
i have no offense against bucket or mop but milk looks gangsta-like.
Note : i wasnt high when this post is written. i can assure you that i am fully conscious and crack-free throughout typing every single word in this post.
Deer looks a bit like jonathan rhys meyers. Just watched Match Point and jonathan is as hot as hell and he reminds me of dear,whoops, i mean deer. This is only an infatuation. it will be over soon, trust me. i dont like this dude. i mean come on i dont even know his name, but he sure looks like a jar of sugar. *sweetness* i should also stop checking him out every 10 mins. im scared that he might realise and think that i am a stalker. Thanks to Sara, she convinced me that deer thinks i AM a crazy stalker. Too bad, she doesnt know who deer is, puijing is the only one who knows this. I shud leave him in peace. All i know is that the flirting stops now....hmm..maybe next week. Ta
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